Two Sad Funerals~

I know it has been a while since I left anything on my blog. Jake had his surgery on the 11th as you all know, and is now healed and feeling 100% better. I am so happy. He had been feeling pretty yucky, and I was feeling like a pretty crappy mom. Then on the 14th my sister Melanie called me to let me know that her best friend Melanie had passed away from cancer and she had been asked to speak at her funeral, which I knew I wanted to be there not only to show my respects to Melanie Snyder, but to give my own sister some much needed support as she bid farewell to a very dear friend. Then on Wednesday, we recived several phone calls letting us know that Rays best Friends 18 year old son had hung himself, also on Sunday. That meant two funerals back to back. (did I mention I hate funerals?) So, on Friday morning we headed to Draper, Ut for Jordans funeral. I did pretty well until his poor dad got up to speak and then I lost it, and cried pretty hard. I can not imagine how hard it would be, as a parent to lose a child. I don't think I could do it. Anyway from there we went and watched Whitney in her soccer game, and then it was off to Fayette, Ut for another funeral. Saturday morning we went to Melanie's funeral where again I cried my eyes out, but for another reason. Here was a mother who wanted so badly to live, just to raise her children. I could not imagine this either, being a mom, and knowing that you were not going to be there for those special occasions ever again. It left me wondering why Jordan and Melanie could not have just traded places. All though I know it was not possible, it would have been nice I'm sure. Here we had a young man who had no desire to live another day upon this earth, and after several attempts was finally able to take his own life. Then we had a young mother of 4, who held on to life as long as she could, until the day her Father in Heaven called her home. Both situations left me thanking my Heavenly Father for the gifs, and life I had been given, and for my health. Anyway, I didn't mean to use this blog to be sad for a moment, but am glad to get it off my chest. :)